I haven't written her for too long! However after a crap night like last night was & a super waspy day today I need some therapy, so here I am.

Top of my list (as it has been for the last 3+ weeks) I'm so feed up of Christmas I could cry! Everyone has been banging on about it for weeks & to me it's just a bloody expensive time I really can do without!
We're so skint at the min, I just can't see which way to turn! I seem to owe cash everywhere & once the wages hit the bank tomorrow, it will all be used paying back the iou's :( Yet I still have 9 people to buy for.

I adore my horse & his companion pony so much, yet I've even seriously considered letting them go :O
It would truly break my heart, but things have got that bad!
Thankfully at the moment they are costing me nothing to keep since I've been given hay & straw by the farmer. Without farmer Ken, the decision would have been taken out of my hands way before now I'm sure. OK so I am paying £38 insurance every month & I have had to buy 1 bag of pony nuts, plus the added veggies to my shopping, but still they are no more expensive than the hubbies dog to keep. That said, the dentist is due any time now, so that will be another £40/£60 & then trimming their feet, another £40.

I just have to keep telling myself things will get better & I'm only feeling so crap because of such a bad night.

Let me tell you about my night.... 1.30am the alarm on my phone goes off which means a nakey rummage around the room to find it. Finally get back to sleep before being rudely awakened by the cat taking a dump over my bed!! :O Not sure if it was the noise or smell that woke me, but an ill cat relieving it's self while walking around your bed isn't funny! Bed had to be totally stripped & I was left laying in a stinking room shivering under a blanket.

Nope not feeling any better after that venting, so gonna try & go to sleep instead :( xx